brian passed away in St James,s Lodge on 16th august 21.My heart aches for him,i feel so guilty for letting him go there as i know he hated it.i didnt think he had to isolate for 10 days in a little room stuck in a chair seeing only me for 1 hour a day.hewas a very sociable person andi believe he just gave up then.The last time i saw him he couldnt speak and was lying facing the wall but 5 times he turned his head and looked at me and i will carry the memory of thre look in his eyes to my dying day .I am so sorry brian i tried to get you home but they said you were too poorly.you were there for 11 days.we had 40 years together,lots of happy memories and sad ones when ali,and tammy passed awayso close to each other.,and both so young.i think of you all the time,and miss you beyond words.i hope i will see you again when my turn comes round which probably due to age is not so far away.every day now is just an existence.i hope you are happy and with your dad who i know you loved.you didnt believe in an afterlife,hopefully you have been proved wrong.and one day you will be waiting for me.loving you and missing you,dena.xxxx